7.23.2008

This is a simple apology.

I'm sorry for my optimisim. I'm sorry that I get jealous sometimes. I'm sorry that my hair is short. I'm sorry that I wear to much jewlrey. I'm sorry that I don't smoke. I'm sorry that I have a small chest. I'm sorry for feeling the need to cry every once in a while. I'm sorry for growing attached so easily. I'm sorry for not letting you pay, ever. I'm sorry that I get upset when you can't come to me with your problems. I'm sorry that I'm not blonde and sexy. I'm sorry that I'd rather spend a night looking at the stars. I'm sorry that I read so much. I'm sorry that I'm an artist. I'm sorry I don't like the same music as you. I'm sorry that I have weird feet. I'm sorry that you need to go through Jesus to get to me. I'm sorry it wasn't enough. I'm sorry I don't want to have sex yet. I'm sorry that I don't care if my nail polish is chipped. I'm sorry if I prefer pants over skirts. I'm sorry for not always doing my hair. I'm sorry that I tried so hard. I'm sorry that I try to live up to the expectations I set for myself. I'm sorry I won't let you dominate me. I'm sorry I don't wear your brand of choice. I'm sorry that I don't shave my legs every single night. I'm sorry I absolutely have to walk on your right side. I'm sorry I'm independant. I'm sorry I don't need a boy to make me happy. I'm sorry I don't spend every second with you, I have friends, too. I'm sorry I always have paint, markers, and pencil lead all over my hands. I'm sorry I have to work instead of hangout with you. I'm sorry I bailed on you. I'm sorry I make stupid faces. I'm sorry I'm loud sometimes. I'm sorry I have nothing to say sometimes. I'm sorry I'm opininated. I'm sorry I sleep in so late. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm so, so, so sorry.

wait.

I lied.

I'm really not sorry for any of that.

I'm just sorry you couldn't handle me.

sunshine.