Lately, I just want to not think. I don't want to think about school, the future, the past, or anything. The more I think about things, the farther away it sounds, especially now that it seems I have to wait even longer then the originally anticipated two years from now. I mean, ugh. I don't want to think about rings or family or dresses or venues, because that seems to get farther and farther away.

Thinking about it and "obsessing" just, every once in a while, you know, isn't a sign of some great immaturity. I'm a girl, and we get excited over things like that. If getting giddy for a bit, occasionally, makes me immauture and makes you want to wait, then what's the point of going through with it at all?

Because no matter how old I get, I'm going to be
just as excited, and just as ready. regardless.

2012 just seems like a good, conveniant, realistic date, to me.
We'll both be 21, with steady jobs, living together for a year, dating for three+ years, our families both approve, and we know it's going to happen eventually. I guess what you said about waiting, all though I guess it makes sense, just kind of upsets me. "We should wait because sometimes I feel like we're too immature.." Too immature to what? Live on our own, together? We've got a year until that even comes into play, and then another until we're supposed to get married. I don't know. The only way that sounds like a good reason is if it's like, "too immature to KNOW that this is what's right." that, being said, I like saying that we're to young, to little, to immature to know we're supposed to get married, and thus, leaves the big looming question of, when we ARE mature enough, by your standards, is it going to last?

In short, I guess it just sounded like you said we're to immature to get married because there's a chance we're not going to stay together and, that really hurt.

but whatever, I'm just going to move on and not think about it.
I'll work and study and party and han gout with people, and deal.

it still really hurt.