3.3.2009.II

It's not just that you didn't stick up for me.
It's that nobody I've ever dated / talked to, really has.
My best friends? Oh, hell yeah, they defend me,
but when it comes to relationships, nobody ever seems to really try.
I mean, if your brother insults me, like I know he used to all the time, I guess I can understand you not jumping up to defend me. But, when a kid like him, a kid you don't even like all that much, fucking insults me to my face, first thing, and calls me shit like "kitty cat" and just generally is an ass, and you hardly say a word, YEAH ... It gets me pretty steamed. I know you care about me, and I know you love me, and i know that you're honest with that, but show it, please? I know he insults me when I'm not around. And I appreciate that you asked him not to do it to my face, and I know he can have his own opinion, but as my boyfriend, as a guy in a serious relationship with a girl, doesn't it bother you to hear shit about me? I've straight stood up and told people to knock it the fuck off when I've heard anyone say shit about you. I've told them not to, I've told them that it's important to me that they don't insult you, and I've generally done what I could to keep your reputation, status quo, image, (or whatever you would like to call it) in tact.

Why?

I love you, I think you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, you are my everything, and when someone insults you, it directly affects me. It's almost like they're insulting me. That's how stuck on you I am. So, I try to do something when I hear something negative said about you. If it was ever said to your face, sure, I would give you a chance to defend yourself and fight your own fight, but ultimately, I'm not going to sit around and WATCH as someone insults you and how you look, or act, or ARE. That's degrading, and upsetting, and I generally just do not like it.

So, yeah. It's okay. Yeah, you apologized. Yeah, I'll get over it.
But that's why I was upset.

You just sat there and watched him insult me, without so much as a
"Dude, c'mon, don't say that" or "That's not true."
Saying "yeah, she doesn't like that, ha ha" after I respond,
doesn't count.

but whatever. rant over.