1.27.2008

It occured to me
all of three minutes ago
how very far away
I've fallen from God.

and I thought I was happy,
until I realized what was missing.
I have amazing friends,
a perfect boyfriend,
a loving family,
a plan for my life,
and no Father.
No guiding light,
no glory.

I feel heavy hearted
and teary eyed.
and as soon as I'm done with this,
I'm going to read my bible.

I need to do my devotions,
and go back to church,
and get committed.
nothing is ever easy.

I miss the free, light feeling
I got when I let my life be in God's hands.
I miss the ease with which I denied evil.
I miss a lot of things.

I have a lot to do.
step 1. read.
step 2. go.
step 3. fix.
step 4. witness.
step 5. reevaluate.
step 6. do.

oh.